So dumb and stupid and idio

I regretted it like an hour after my little breakdown bye why did i over react so bad

ugh it just rly hurt bc it feels like nobody wants to talk to me at all ive just been feeling really lonely lately and she wasnt talking to je at all and when she did it felt dry and felt barely obligatory so it hurt extra worse

And my best friend is working all the time and when shes not shes hanging out with her boyfriend

It feels like nobody likes me at all

its so dumb and ive only been like less straightforward and lovey dovey because i cant tell if she even loves me anymore i dont want to make her uncomfortable with any unwelcome advances or whatever

atupid stupid stupid i just wanted to be your boyfriend i just wanted to be ur only one forever im sos ststdupif UGH I JUST WANTED TO BE WIFED UP q_q cnt tell if im being used for my love and money ever… cant trust anyone… i ahet myslef

i hate that i cant ead people i wish everyone was truthful and kind and never used or abused anyone because i either trust someone fully or not at all and its so dumb because i wish i could hust trust everyone! I cant trust my own judgement but i also cant trust anyone elses ? The **** am i even suppost to do

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I feel like all i do is give and never receive but i want to give i really do but ugh i sont know i dont know anything i have the brain of a newbord i dont know anything and i dont know how to be normal

I wish i had normal brain and could just react normally to every situation and not freqk out over anything and everything i wish i wasnt so dumb

I miss her so bad all the time its so stupdi it really hurt when it felt like she was just actually ignoring mre

I feel like i cant bring anything she does that upsets me up because she tweaks out and gets upset

nibody likes feeling bad nobody likes being upset but emotions are human and normal qnd healthy and they need to be felt especially If its hurting someone hahaha!!! god i wish she would just be STRAIGHTFORWARD i dont like being left in the dark like that it makes me oh so anxious haha

I wanted to talk it out i did but she wasnt talking to me at all so like?? Yeah i totally think shes gonna respind to me and resolve it and not just say i need to be normal

Its 3 pm im gonna go for a walk and smoke some weed down by the creek i fear

if u see dis add me back whenever ur comfortable or if you wanna talk it out and I apologise for being immature and blcoking you and whatnot but i like really really loveyou ok but if u dont please tell me instead of letting me be delusional ok