disgusting
by:
Ow-My-Head 
166
166
17.08.2020
29 comments
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 04:39
LinkNo
What happened
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 04:44
LinkJust
Got into a conversation about sexuality when I was on the phone with Adam
He said he'd be in a threesome and I got excited, and he said he would as long as I didn't bring another guy
And I got excited but confused so
I said "You often tell me that you will only love me, yet you told me that you'd have a threesome. Nothing against you, but your logic has me genuinely confused. Could you explain? It's fine if not. I know it can be hard to talk about."
(Yes I texted it to him because he couldn't hear what I was saying)
He clarified that he meant sexually, like he'd do stuff with two people
And my heart dropped
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 04:46
LinkOh god.
Lovely, that’s not okay..
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 04:47
LinkBut like
He doesn't know I'm poly
I'm gonna tell him when I see him IRL
Everything just felt so wrong in that moment
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 04:48
LinkThat is wrong
You should probably talk to him about that if it makes you uncomfortable
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 04:49
Linki feel so gross. I don't like feeling like this
I don't want to cheat I don't want to love anyone else but him I'm such a whore I feel horrible
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 04:52
LinkNo.
You’re not.
It was wrong of him to say that and make you feel that way. It’s disgusting.
I’ve felt the way you do before, and it doesn’t stop until you confront it.
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 04:53
Linkno I just want to cheat i don't really care
I ****ing hate myself for these thoughts they're not natural
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 04:55
LinkListen
There is NOTHING wrong with you.
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 05:00
LinkI know. I'm sorry.
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 05:12
LinkYou have nothing to be sorry for, if he doesn’t love you for you in all your kind glory, he doesn’t deserve you.
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 05:13
LinkYou does love me
He doesn't even know he did anything "wrong"
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 05:14
LinkYou should talk to him about it, if you don’t he’s gonna keep saying things like that and they’ll slowly get worse and worse, chipping away at your sanity without you realizing.
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 05:15
LinkI'll do it when I see him
Which will probably be this week
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 05:16
LinkThat’s good.
I hope you feel better
You should go to sleep
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 05:17
LinkI'll sleep when dad comes in
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 05:21
LinkAlright
You know that I’m ALWAYS here to talk and listen to you
Anything you need, I’ll be here, okay?
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 05:23
LinkOkay. I love you so, so, so much.
EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 05:26
LinkI love you too a lot.
Without you I don’t know if I’d even be living at this point.
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EmmyDraws
17.08.2020 05:29
Link(Yes ofc anything for you)
Just being around you helps me
Ow-My-Head[OP]
17.08.2020 05:34
LinkI so glad im here for you
