its not like my part mattered anyway

it will be easy to replace my character

she only has 7 lines

thats not fair its not fair i tried so hard im trying i dont understand

that was my only motivation to get through school each day. just get my grades up so i dont get kicked out. but apparently that dpesnt matter anymore because last quarters grades suddenly matter in this production too

im so tired of owen he makes me so uncomfortable i want him to get away from me but i backed down i said i wouldnt but i did i apologized for something i didnt do i apologized for getting mad at him i said that it was going to be different that this time i was going to stand up for myself but i didnt

i just want him to get away from me i dont want to be near him i thought he was my friend i thought he was nice now im scared hes going to do something bad to me

this kind of stuff is the reason i have trust issues. I trusted him and i shouldnt have

now he wont ****ing shut up about asking questions about me and my partner and i want to sob because its my fault i told him i told him so he wouldnt think i liked him but i wish i never met him

i dont like him i want him to leave me alone he scares me i dont want him to do something bad to me

and when i tried to defend myself i think he got mad so i just pretended that it was fine but it isnt fine i dont want to be near him

all he jokes about is r/ping people and tells me about his nsfw art and says i should draw some and he tried to show me gross videos on his phone and he jokes about r/ping kids and he called me kitten and i know he was joking i think but i got so uncomfortable i wanted to curl up into a ball and die

try to make friends they said it will be fun they said yeah no now i trust people even less and now i am even more scared of cisgender men in my school.

i miss my other friend i miss xem so much xe were the only reason i wanted to go to school

i cant believe i used to have a crush on xem lol that was funny

so glad they rejected me cos i lost feelings for them a month after i confessed to them and then a few months later i met v and now we ar together and its been the happiest time of my life even if my mental health has been really bad its getting better slowly and im learning to communicate better so things dont bottle up and it helps so much more than i thought

ggigling coz my dumbazz was upset over school and now im tolking about my silly

I NEED MY JOURNALLLLL