if I need to get the thoughts out i'll put them in here

1. I can't take compliments. I don't know why. It may seem like I can once you type "oh this looks cool!" or "noice" yknow stuff like that. and I respond with a thanks! But... I just... Can't handle them... I desperately want attention and when I do, I either feel like I didn't deserve it or actually earn it or I want more. And because of all the fa drama and other people accusing some of the users of being attention.... wh**** I feel like I am one.

2. I feel weird whenever I do something in particular. Like if I feel like I did something weird I don't want to talk about it because I don't want people to think of me differently. If I don't want to do something considered not for me. I won't do it half of the time because I don't want to be considered a bad person because I didn't follow their 'rules'

3. I know I shouldn't explain myself because there's no need, and I shouldn't be sharing this with anyone because they could use these against me but I don't care. I know I could get serious consequences but I honestly can't care. Just please. Don't?

(Warning: Contains curse words) 4. I'm......... Sensitive. Everyone calls me a strong girl because they think I can handle more than normal people. I don't think that's true because I can get hurt very easily. I try not to show my emotions but obviously that doesn't work. AND I HATE IT WHEN I ****ING BOTTLE EMOTIONS TO THE POINT I END UP CRYING IN FRONT OF MY GODDAMN MOTHER AND ****ING TELL HER EVERYTHING. I DON'T WANT TO DO IT AND I ****ING HATE DOING IT. I even boast to people that i'm strong and can handle strong feedback but.... I... just.... can't... My parents sort of can tell but I don't think that much.... I hate the people that ended up using me, and abusing me by hurting my heart with comments and claims, and mean things. the only person that really knows i'm this sensitive will obviously now be everyone reading this, and my very close friend Stella. (Stella ik you'll be reading this later so don't hint to anyone that you are that person because I just said your name. sorry :/)

(Warning: One more curse )5. I want to stop typing a lot so... I'll just say this as is. As some of you may know because i've told a few of you I don't like my brother. And I have explained why. now my brother has hurt me. Emotionally and Physically. And i'm to tired to type out the details. I just.... I. ****ing. Hate. Him.

I'll stop for now. If you want to comment to help me emotionally go ahead. I need it.