the realism of gore in horror movies are sometimes good. but how accurate are they? i want to know how it feels to be stabbed. i wanna get set on fire. I really want to see how it looks to the victim when they get their neck snapped.

maybe if i dig my eyeballs out of my sockets will i see the true faces of them. and i could see without glasses. not many really care about my emotional state. see, i have something trusty called "lying" and i am able to use this technique to stay around utensils and pens!

i once was able to hold an X-acto knife to cut some cardboard. how much i wanted to sink that shit into the webs of my fingers. i used it for so long i thought i would tempt. but that was months ago.

my hands get grimier and grimier. my fingers get thinner. my hands look pretty. pretty slender fingers. i have goosebumps and have been sitting in the same crisscross shape for 2 hours. and looking at the possibilities.

nothing really, im just talking as usual. just about my experiences with having moments of inhalation thoughts. thoughts of mine i have when things around me gives possibility to commit self-made man slaughter. thats why i hang up pictures with tape. i cant trust my stupid brain either.