I really should’ve stopped my ****!ng attitude a long time ago, However.., it’s too late and now I just screw everything up with a joke that probably shouldn’t have been said in the first place. Your reasoning was t just from that joke I understand now, you were fed up with all my bullshit. I agree I’m fed up with myself too, I’m not really asking for forgiveness because it’s very clear you hate me a lot. So I won’t bother trying to ask for that.. I should’ve stopped a long time ago when I realized how much I affected you ALL of those times. I didn’t stop and I don’t know why, it’s like I was taking control over you. If I’m completely honest. I was. And I’m sorry that’s wasn’t what I should’ve done and I have thought more into it. I’m the one who started all of this shit. I cussed a lot of this, I really knew I wasn’t doing anything good to you when it all started but I didn’t stop. I really really wished that you had left sooner.