The day I found out I cried so much to the point where every thought of them gone made me cry I was crying so hard that it hurt. my heart hurt, my entire body felt like it was being shocked. I cried for over 2 hours. I didn't want to make any noise or else my mum and sister would hear me so I just laid in bed and cried silently. I miss them so much

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i_xNEe-DYrw

hh I'll just go distract myself. once my tablet is charged ... Why don't I at least seem like I care? I'm going along my day as if everything was perfect. as if they never existed. I'm- ... I do care. I really do.