its crazy how i can be peoples "favorite person" and then ruin everything and it will probably happen again knowing me, i cant communicate how i feel at all and i assume so much to the point im upset over things that they didnt even know i didnt like/didnt know they were doing wrong, im so scared to lose someone by trying to them how i feel so i dont say anything and i lose them trying not to

trying to tell them*

im so selfish, not everything is about me. ive tried to convince myself that ill just be fine if i dont tell anyone anything but it makes everything so much worse

i want to be a happy person that people can rely on, but i drive everyone away because of this, im so horrible at communicating

even if i did communicate it felt like i was a horrible person

my cat larry is so cute

reminder for when i get up to pick up dishes

when i say im going to leave fa soon i mean im leaving when i get my phone back whihc i hope will be soon, my mom just said i need to do my missing assignments

im here to draw and talk to my friends, when i get my devices back ill be able to do that withhput being here, i might link my twt and tumblr but definitely not my discord