ok so i mask every where. I cant not do it anymore itz gotten to the point where I go home nd act completely different than i do @ school. I have no place other than by myself nd the internet to be me and it rlly sucks. Awhile back my parents told me that they had to put down a horse that i spent a lot of time with. I really didn't react that much internally. Like I fake cried, bcuz they were crying but I just pretended bcuz???? I didn't know how to react nd I kinda saw it coming anywayz???? I had a lot of similar reactionz az i've grown up, not a lot haz changed,,,/gen

I hate how I have no where to put thiz than here but ???? idrc,,,,, I hate waking up witha dif personality everyday, and pretending to be something else. I dont know who i am, bottom line. I just??? exist, that'z about it. I dunno what 2 do, advice would be gr8

I've been doing this for awhile now so i'm not sure, I know I frequently take personalities from characters, prolly bcuz i dont know what my own is like so i'm trying to find out??? When I wake up itz alwayz sum kind of strange feeling and sumtimez it feels like idk "normal" and sumtimez it doesn't itz weird?????

ima be honest, I ignore thiz issue a lot. I try to pretend i dont struggle with identity but I still def do. i dunno what 2 do abt it bc it hurtz to think all I know is a mask but I just dont know how 2 take it off,,

i mean?? probably, god i wish i could talk to luc I know he'd immediately have the awnser

spells it wrong cutely