I hate myself so much I want to kill myself, I genuinely wanna die, I wanna slit my throat sometimes, I dont feel okay anymore, I feel so stupid and dumb, I don't feel pretty I feel like I'm just an ugly pig, I feel fat even though I'm a god damned stick, I'm gonna force myself o throw up so much this afternoon because i ****ing hate myself that much and I think and feel like I will die from the starvation that i do to myself, i hate everthing about me, i hate my stupid luttle face i hate myself, i hate my weight, i hate my hair, i have my skin, i hate my eyeys, i hate my teeth, i hate my lips i feel so ****ing stupid at times, my parennts ****ing hate me, they will never love me, i have failed them as their own blood and child, my mum abuses my dad doesnt give a **** about me, the girls in class make me feel so ****ing uuseless as well i feel ike a waste of space same with the boys ig, i just hope i die, i dont deserve to live or anything, i feel like my world is crumbling apart, i wanna cry so badly, i jus

ust wanna be happy for once in my god damned life, but no ill never ****ing get that because i cant even have a nice school life, or a nice family life because no one ****ing truly likes me and i hate my life and myself so much, i dont deserve shit at all i ****ing hate everything my parents have never loved me theve always been abusives ****s towards me all my life, ive been bullied for who knows how long and i didnt even notice in primary since i was a ****ing stupid ass kid, i didnt even know i had family issues until last year, i didnt even know my mum was abusing me or guilt tripping me, i feel so dumb for that i feel so ****ing naive, i feels so so so so ****ing maniplulated =, and i cant get anyone to help me, becaus eim too scared to open up to anyone at all about my problems, i feel so hungry as well, i havent eaten since recess and all ive had is oreos and a few bites from a cake, but after that, i fell so ****ing fat, i ****ing hate bloating, i feel so ugly, why did i want a stomach before? I look

so ****ing ugly, I'm gonna slit my ****ing wrists later, first with a safety pin and then the scissors so I can get the burn of the cuts, I hate everything, I hate my family, my mum, dad, grandma, grandpa, my whole family, I hate my looks, my crooked teeth, my dark dumb eyes, my dry ass thin lips, my bloating ass body, I hate school the work overload, and the people, my mum also overworks the shit outta me like I have no emotions and my whole life just works and work and work, I can't get a break, I can't get a break, I can't get a ****ing break, I want to rest, I want to rest for one day in my life, I just wanna feel calm instead of worked all the time. But if I don't do work, then I'm a failure, I don't drive life then I am just a worker I don't get a break at all, i wanna die, I just have to kill myself, and it's all over, and I can finally have a rest, and I can finally die, but im to scared to kill myself, but i wanna die, so the day i can have the moment i can lodge those scissors into my throat i wi

will finally be free from life, but i will never when the time comes when i die, the day i can finally end it all, i just wanna be happy just once, just one more time again.

sorry guys

i got a bit too silly

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