Discord server I joined and made friends with ppl? Everyone decides to abandon me the moment they sense I’m not in line with one of their “friends” then come sniffing around again when said “friend” gets into a drama and they finally see their true colors. It’s disgusting people who abandon you at the slightest difference of opinion. Marshall Tobi/melody Jonni and Jas. Nice little friend group is all gone now. Completely gone Jamie and Ducky Gone. Goopy. Callisto. Jupiter. Gone. ****ING ROSE. IS GONE.

****.

And I’m so stupid I keep crying and praying to an unknown god that they’ll come back that maybe it was just a prank that maybe they’re still trying

Because they’re all I’ve had for four years No matter what kind of trouble I got into

No matter what they didn’t leave just because they smelt a little drama They didn’t leave when I poured my heart out They didn’t leave when I vented They didn’t leave when I told them I didn’t like one of their friends attitude towards them They’re so beyond sweet Their personality it’s just Overwhelmingly beautiful Every time I’d talk to them I could feel their serine and loving personality flowing out of my I Want I wanted to be there for them the way they were always there for me and I ****ing ruined it and I miss them so ****ing bad

I’m so scared of the ****ing world now it’s so disgusting I hate it I want to watch it all rot from the inside out slowly I admire Rose because every time I felt this way they’d force a brand new garden of love to share in my heart

Every time I’d come home from school they'd be the only person I’d look forward to talking to. It felt like a warm hug after a particularly shitty day

I can feel myself rotting

I need their grace Just their presence I just want them here again **** me for becoming so attached to someone It feels unreal the way they treat me They’re too sweet.. And when I wake up I’m constantly insulted just by existing and I just want to kill my self I’ve thought of cutting my throat open 46 times in the past week I’m so tired

Just come back you idiot..I want to fight with you again and talk about how much we hate and love certain foods I just want you to be around again I can’t do this I can’t I don’t Help me

Please just come back..