i love falling in love with cringy people. i got irony poisoning at such a young age, and these people heal me. they do things they love with no regret, with no nagging voice in the back of their head saying anything and everything they do will be judged and they have to remain unmoving uncaring or else someone will laugh. maybe they do care, but they do it anyways. they overcome it. and that heals me. i want to be like that, with them, i want us to be happy together. i want to make them happy. i want us to go back to when there werent eyes everywhere and voices always whispering about us and just have fun

every now and then i manage to make something wildly talented and then the skill is just gone in a flash. like i drew me and my partners dunmeshi inserts and like, thats the best ive drawn in ages??? and like its just gone. cant replicate that level. not until some other far off random moment of divine intervention

man i just have agoraphobia and i look at people who dont with such aw and wonder