(I am experiencing the smallest amount of emotional distress and blowing it way out of proportion))

I feel more numb than anything honestly

i guess ive been thru too much this past week and now its all kind of. died

like i reached a turning point and now i cant feel anything at all

i reallllllllyyyyyy wanna like

yknow relapse

but i dont think i should i might see my partner tomorrow

idk its like ive got a lot on my mind but im still braindead @ the same time

i decided that if my parents decide to pull me back out of public school . that'll be my final straw and ill just die!

im not worried about it well thats kind of a lie

i cant stand to lose my friends + partner because of not being able to see them @ school anymore

and its just gonna send me back into a even worse depressive rot anyway!

are my parents ****ing retarded my grades were worse before i went into public school they should know better than to think pulling me out again is a good idea i guess they just dont think im trying?

i love my life i think? im content with it at the least. i have an ok amount of friends i finally have someone that makes me feel important

i really shouldnt have much to complain about ! i have everything i should need