That overwhelming feeling
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OoCheezeballoO 
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12.07.2022
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OoCheezeballoO[OP]
12.07.2022 03:09
LinkALRIGHT KNOW WHAT!? STORYTIME.
(Btw, yes this does kinda count as vent art so here's a kinda funny story)
So basically I've been in Destin a for a week and while there I kept getting this feeling where my heart would start racing, I would start panicking, my thoughts would be going everywhere, ect. With this I'd usually breath in and out and divert my mind. The thing that makes me panic is death and what happens afterwards. I'm Christian, yes, but ever since I was little the thought of death scared me so bad I'd start freaking out thinking about it. When I got older this fear got better to the point where (up until recently) it was almost non-existant. But being in destiny all ways messes it up for some reason and guess what? This time it was REALLY bad. And while I was in Destin though, I went to my favorite restaurant there which is a hibachi place. This fear of mine got in the back of my mind, but as long as I was breathing normally- I was okay enough to be there. Well after the cook did his little show-
OoCheezeballoO[OP]
12.07.2022 03:17
Link-(yknow, onion volcano this, jokes, cooking food, ect.) We were about to eat but this panic thing of mine got so bad I couldn't just breath and divert my mind. No no no. It didn't matter WHAT or WHO I was thinking about, because it all managed to go back to the same thing. Death. It was so bad that I lost my apatite and couldn't eat. So I politely told my grandmother (who I was with) that I had to use the restroom. In the end I was in the restroom for 15/20 minutes just breathing and trying not to scream randomly. When I left though, everyone I was with had finished eating and my grandmother told me to put my food in a box. I did just that and we left. It didn't really bother me since I wasn't to hungry, but I was still pretty embarrassed. (I know it sounds dumb because I could've just told her or something, but like- I just can't and idk why. When I try to explain stuff I can't do it with my words.) Anyways, yeah that's my story. Have a great one! :')