I get this real nasty feeling I start to feel sick sometimes I even start to panic I hate the thought of u I wish u would just stay out of my head but everyday I am reminded I ****ing hate it like rn I was remembered all the horrible shit that happened and now I just feel like I need to vomit I just ate too so this fuxking sucks I hate you I hate thinking about you I wish I didn't but I cant forget u no matter how hard I ****ing try to ignore and forget it always comes back and ****s with me I thought today would be the best day ever spending time with family, my little cousin finally being adopted good shit right but then the thought of you instantly ruins it