Almost all my teachers treat me super nice and are reallt gentle with me and it makes me happy bceause i cant read expressions or tone so when they make it more exaggerated it helps me and im like oh theyre not mad at me!! Also i just realized that everytime my art teacher compliments my work when i give a little smile it is barely even there and i dont think its noticeable becaus i practiced smiling in the mirror and even though i was smiling i didnt look like it

How it probably looks is liek Me: oh....... thank you :/ Like i probably sound RUDE but im really really shy and i dont want to be like no i hate it but i also dont want to be super proud of myself cuz like i feel like it is kinda selfish i like to keep it neutral you know so i give a small (not even visible apparently) smile

Also my teachers trust me so much its insane my middle school teachers would go outside with the class for mask break and theyd let me stay in the classroom by myself and id just be drawkng hatsune miku in silence

When im in class and da whole class has to pair up with someone but i dont have friends in that class so they teacher just gives me the nod saying i can work alone. Lately though ive been having to work with other people because the teacher wanted me to and sometimes i dont have the courage to ask if i can work alone especially when theyve already assigned us groups and i keep getting paired with popular kids and i hate group work because i do all the work and when actually start talking about the project for a minute (when the teacher walks over) and when i want to say something they all start mock praising me and my idea being like wow that is such an amazing idea you are so smart isnt she so smart and so i just shut up and do all yhe work while they talk about sports or video games and stuff. Half the time nobody can even hear me but yeah. I understand that working with other people is important but im the weird background character nobody knows the name of and i barely say anything at all so why -

- so why would you think its a good idea to pair up the kid everyone thinks is mute with the kids whos stanley drops on the ground every 5 minutes and scares me which makes themnlaugh😭😭😭 like bro i cant even work on an assignment with friends because i talk too much with friends but with people i dont know i usually stay quiet 💔💔 this why i want to work independently bro idk why my teachers think that this is good for me whej im on the verge of crying everytime cuz everyone my age is so mean😭

I keep thinking about that one time that thid girl came up to me and kept sayiny "wrist check" and all the blood drained from my face and then qhen i asked her to clarify she said "i asked for a rizz check" like ***** i heard that shit loud and clear SHE SAID IT LIKE 5 TIMES TOO i have terrible hearing but bro rizz and wrist sound different

Im so glad i moved schools even though i miss my one friend they go to an early college now anyways so its ok and the worst that happened in this new school to me is being sexualized by some dude asking me if it was "grippy" like i had never seen thid dude before this was like the first day of school and then some girls bullying me in Spanish but they stopped idk why but people dont really talk to mr anymore so its nice

Probably because i dont show my face on tiktok like i used to on my old account which i still csnt get into to private for some reason so people from my old school cam still find that shit 💔😭 i was mad autistic in middle school i literally had the stereotypical sped kid humor and i cosplayed a dream smp member and had a dino mask so ofc i wad going to get bullied i just can hardly believe i used to be so open about that shit 😭 crazy

Im still sped but a little less i think idk tho im trying to act more likr normal people is it working giys

I should start painting my dino mask and working on my other head base ill go look for some sandpaper in the basement later when i get home

Does anyone have any halloween blue scorpions from 2021 adopt me

Does anyone else get really emotional and happy listenijg to live performances from bands and artistd because idk i just get so emotional when i hear people cheer when the song starts to play because all the people like that band theyre just like me idk seeing/hearing so manu people happy about the same tjing im happy about makes me so emotional