i looked back at a combersation me and charles shad he was begging me and i said there was nothing, i wanted to die... and now i look here and now im the one begging and crying i feel how he did, i should have said never leave me i ove you, but i was being stiff and a dyumb ass im so stupid i need the time to do this i ****ing wanna die im so dumb and stupid i should have been with a dead account now im here depressed as **** and i only rlize now that the sparkle in my life was charles and i ****ed it up....what am i supposed to do i just-