I’m splitting like rlly hard swing from I hate being taken for granted and they’re amazing and I’m horrible person for thinking like that Which I know the latter is true I just, am annoying and overbearing, and I know it’s super annoying that I want to see him But I hate this routine This whole intimacy finally seeing each other and then him being kinda distant and not saying I love you too or I love yous I feel used a lot of the time and I know that isn’t the case I just If I could go back in time, I’d talk to him right when we started dating within the third week, bc that’s when he said he loved me for the first time and I just want to tell him everything that’s happened since then to see how he reacts then, before he knew how awful of a partner I am I think if I just offend myself, rn, or soon, I’d free him I’m a waste anyways it’s nit like I have any friends anymore, I sacrificed everything including my ambitions, which I’d do a hundred times over in a heart beat, I just wish I had something of