well idk the more i look at his message the more mad and annoyed i get

its probably just my medication tho yep i dont think i ACTUALLY hate him maybe its my meds!

he doesnt even see me as a boy but its ok. its to not feed my delusions anyways. im actually a girl. yep.

well chikos ¿es malo??ksk q quiera arruinar la vida de mi novio…. porque lo amo, pero al mismo tiempo quiero lastimarlo, PERO no kiero lastimarlo pq verlo lastimado me pone TRISTE, PERO LO quieroo... pero también no lo quiero hacerlo? todo esto es tan confuso, siento q lo amo y al siguiente lo odio, ya no sé qué kiero. ES LA PINCHE MEDICINA

PERDÓNAME me ENCANTA cambiar de idioma SOY RETRASADO DE VERDSD

yooo maybe i should tell this to my therapist but. i was actually gonna have a session with her on tuesdau… but sadly she got sick (she probably lied and didnt want to waste her time on me but its ok i understand.)

IT WILL be okay trust. I know how to handle this heh….

ITS NEXT WEEK. on tuesday.. i think i mentioned abt this to her before but i forgot -_- silly me!