i feel like human garbage
10.03.2020
5 comments
Medeea
10.03.2020 21:03
Linkif you're sad i'm sad
sad is contagious
I've hurt a lot of people, hell- I just made my girlfriend hate me. I've lied and abused my friendship with people I care about just because my inlarged ego and having so much garbage in my mouth that I never have self control or think about how I hurt people with how I say things. My older sister snapped me out of the cycle by telling me off on how much of a shitty friend I am for doing so much damage to people's self esteem. Now I really do feel like they don't need me if they wanted to be in their own group. I don't deserve friends or people that laugh at my jokes. I don't deserve to be able to be around people that are really nice, god **** i'm crying and I DON'T DESERVE MY ****ING TALENT OR MY BRAIN. I WANT TO
people wouldn't care. I only have this account and my last bit of myself that isn't faking to be someone i'm not. So I will bag this up when I go to school and see that I've ****ed myself over by being in the cycle for too long and people already seeing me as an asshole.
god i'm hyperventilating what if i'm already not ever be able to change what if I don't ever change? am I in my own cage of ego that will always keep my truthful self locked up until I abandon it and become the most trashy version of myself or get sENT OVER THE EDGE ENOUGH TO DROWN MYSELF?? AM I GOING TO BE ABLE TO LIVE WITH MYSELF. it's okay, i'm overthinking like everyone says. i'll stop being annoying.