I hate myself so much I want to kill myself, I genuinely wanna die, I wanna slit my throat sometimes, I dont feel okay anymore, I feel so stupid and dumb, I don't feel pretty I feel like I'm just an ugly pig, I feel fat even though I'm a god damned stick, I'm gonna force myself o throw up so much this afternoon because i ****ing hate myself that much and I think and feel like I will die from the starvation that i do to myself, i hate everthing about me, i hate my stupid luttle face i hate myself, i hate my weight, i hate my hair, i have my skin, i hate my eyeys, i hate my teeth, i hate my lips i feel so ****ing stupid at times, my parennts ****ing hate me, they will never love me, i have failed them as their own blood and child, my mum abuses my dad doesnt give a **** about me, the girls in class make me feel so ****ing uuseless as well i feel ike a waste of space same with the boys ig, i just hope i die, i dont deserve to live or anything, i feel like my world is crumbling apart, i wanna cry so badly, i jus

i just wanna be happy for once in my god damned life, but no ill never ****ing get that because i cant even have a nice school life, or a nice family life because no one ****ing truly likes me and i hate my life and myself so much, i dont deserve shit at all i ****ing hate everything my parents have never loved me theve always been abusives ****s towards me all my life, ive been bullied for who knows how long and i didnt even notice in primary since i was a ****ing stupid ass kid, i didnt even know i had family issues until last year, i didnt even know my mum was abusing me or guilt tripping me, i feel so dumb for that i feel so ****ing naive, i feels so so so so ****ing maniplulated =, and i cant get anyone to help me,

becaus eim too scared to open up to anyone at all about my problems, i feel so hungry as well, i havent eaten since recess and all ive had is oreos and a few bites from a cake, but after that, i fell so ****ing fat, i ****ing hate bloating, i feel so ugly, why did i want a stomach before? I look so ****ing ugly, I'm gonna slit my ****ing wrists later, first with a safety pin and then the scissors so I can get the burn of the cuts, I hate everything, I hate my family, my mum, dad, grandma, grandpa, my whole family, I hate my looks, my crooked teeth, my dark dumb eyes, my dry ass thin lips, my bloating ass body, I hate school the work overload, and the people, my mum also overworks the shit outta me like I have no emotions and my whole life just works and work and work, I can't get a break, I can't get a break, I can't get a ****ing break, I want to rest, I want to rest for one day in my life, I just wanna feel calm instead of worked all the time. But if I

don't do work, then I'm a failure, I don't drive life then I am just a worker I don't get a break at all, I wanna die, I just have to kill myself, and it's all over, and I can finally have a rest, and I can finally die, but im to scared to kill myself, but I wanna die, so the day I can have the moment I can lodge those scissors into my throat I will finally be free from life, but I will never when the time comes when I die, the day I can finally end it all, I just wanna be happy just once, just one more time again

I hate everyone, I wanna be happy just for once, I wanna have a good life, I just wanna be happy, I feel so ****ing empty, I feel like my heart is gonna ****ing burst, but I wanna kill myself because all of these ****ers, I wanna be okay. It's not getting better. I wanna be left alone. What did I do to you exactly? I never knew you until the year started, why did I get things thrown at me for no reason at all? Why did you throw it? Why did you record me crying? Why do you make me feel like killing myself? What did I do to you? What have I done to deserve this at all? What have I ever done for the racist comments? Why do you call me bestie when you know so very much that I don't like you at all? How do you

even call me your friend when you can't even stop them from hurting me? Can I just mind my own business without having to have people make me cry? Why do you make me cry? Why do I have to be in the rumors? What have I done? Is it all my fault? Am I the reason you do this? Did I make you feel like what you do to me now? Can you forgive me? Can I forgive you? Did I hurt you? Did I do this or did you? Is it all my fault? Am I the reason for the things you do? Am I the reason for all the rumors? Did I do it? If I did, I'm sorry, I didn't know.

why is my mum yelling at me 4 no reason at all wtf did I expect to do the work u asked me 2 do, u already know my school life is shit, even spoke to the deputy abt the problem and u still act like shit 2 me, and u say that u r trying b nicer, no u arent. I don't know anymore, I just ****ing hate myself, and I not I can tell or let anyone notice, I don't think ill ever be able to open up to anyone genuinely, I don't think ill ever be able to fully trust I, anyone, at all, I don't think I can even trust myself, I mean I'm already a little self-destructive shit who has mental health problems with my parents ****ing ignoring those facts acting like EVERYTHING that has happened to me just doesn't matter and should be discarded oh and when Ella did that ****ing racist shit thing, I hurt myself even more, same with the throwing things at me, I hurt myself even more, and you still ****ing know it, you know I ****ing have hurt myself but don't consider shit that something is wrong in the head with me, what the **** d

o you want, you want me to be your perfect little daughter with no problems at all, then ****ing treat me right at least

Leave me alone, you ****ing leaked my account where i have spilled so much of my life on there, what the actual **** is wrong with you, ‘do you really trust ____????’ YES YOU ****ING STALKER THIS IS WHY NO ONE ****ING LLIKE YOU YOU MAKE ME ****ING SLIT, YOU MAKE ME CUT MYSELF FOR **** SAKES, IF YOU ATLEAST READ THE VENTS YOUD UNDERSTAND WHY I AM ****ING LIKE THIS AND WHY I DISTRACT MYSELF BUT YOUR BULLSHIT RUINS IT AND I CANT DISTRACT ANYTHING AT ALL..

Nothing is getting better at home, i feel so much stress but i cant get a break, they dont see that, and if i try to tell my friends, i feel as ill be shut out and that my feelings and all this dont mtatter but does it really matter? Am i just overreacting about my feelings?? I cant do this anymore, i hate it so much as well when she just disregards my feelings all like it all doesnt matter, shes found out i cut before in the past with safety pins, but she doesnt evenknow that i cut myself with a blade, once these cuts fully heal, ill do it again and again and again, i cant do this anymore, im planning to kill myself sometime soon during school holiday, but i dont, but i do since i hate bow everthing is going at the moment and im scared to grow up im scared to be an

adult, I genuinely cant do this anymore I know I needhelp but I'm scared to open up to anyone even if they're some of my closest friends, I doubt I'll fully open up to how I feel, the days i do feel like opening up, its about someone else and i dont wnat to seem like an attention seeker when they vent, i care about them an d know they care about me but i can never find the right moment to open up to anyone, and what would i do if i told someone that i want to kill myself? They would think i'm crazy or just laugh it off and make me feel like even more shit about it, i don't know what to do anymore about my situation, i can't even open up to my parents, i try and

I don't even know who I am anymore, I don't feel like me at all. I don't have a personality at all, i thought i had everything under control now but know i don't even know what i am or who i am, i feel disgusted by how act sometimes, real life and online, i act different to different people and different platforms, i don't know anymore Give me a break please. I need just ONE break, I go on holiday, it's all life and paradise as soon as I'm back ITS HELL just give me a break for ONE DAY, i work and work and work. I get no rest at all until I fall asleep while overthinking at night.

ok what the hell