why does no one believe me i promise i just want to make people happy

i dont want to do bad things i try really hard i promise i just want to help people

does everyone think im a bad person does everyone think im lying what would i even have to gain tell me what would i need to gain from hurting people i dont mean to i just want to make everything okay

i really promise i just want to make people happy i promise i never ever mean to hurt people on purpose i promise

why does nobody trust me i dont understand

why does everyone think so low of me i promise im trying really hard

why do i have to cry over everything why am i so weak why arent my parents proud of me why am i so alone why do i make everyone hate me why do i mess up so much why do i get so scared over noises its not him but i get so scared why do i keep trying so hard why do i think everything will be okay after ive been proven wrong countless times why do i have all these bad thoughts i take my medication everyday why do i want to die so much why cant i be smart why do i make everyone laugh at me why do i get upset so easily why is everything a chore why am i so sad

why cant i get help why are we going back in time why is everything getting worse and worse i thought the future was going to be promising

sorry i dont want help from flipanim or my friends i just want people to trust me and i want a therapist my mama says she is trying hard to find one but i dont know if i can do it anymore

i will be a good person

i will make people happy i will make people proud

i will be talented someday

i will find my purpose someday

i will fix everything

i can do good things i can help people