I feel like people may think of my wanting to be nice and my words as fake but I do genuinely mean my overly sappy happy things I say, I want the world to be beautiful. There is still definitely a disconnect between the real world me and the online me, but the only difference is I can actually try and put my thoughts into words rather than not being able to.

The world is amazing and I'm happy that I am in it and get to experience the gift that is living everyday even though I am so dysfunctional and feel like shit a lot of the time.