so im going anonymous on here the last thing my therapist said before she left me was to start being open and so why not on here i dont expect people to believe me about my mental illnesses but for those who will believe me thanks i also dont expect help from anyone again this is just a place for me to tell people things i dont even tell my parents let alone anybody i know so yea... also i politely ask if you cant handle my content for your own safety please leave the page. there will be a lot of triggers on here. thank you for your understanding-