i hate knowing that I'm preferred over others i guess like, if i were to stop talking to these guys they'd probably forget about me bc i met them from a much better known friend

but i dont like this person in my friend group. because hes slowly shown me that hes not the type of character i want to be near and i cant change that about him and i shouldn't NEED to change that anyway, if he doesnt want to fix his shitty actions and lying I wont make him

which sucks cause we used to be really close, but i know if I were to cut him off I'd lose so much more as well, i mean, everything honestly i left my whole other group behind because i had people who i felt like actually cared and he was the one to introduce me, but will they still like me if i cut him off?

they've shown their bias with how they act when we're in vcs,they flock to him as soon as hes in there

i sound jealous but im not, i dont want to be the favorite but i wish it wasnt so obvious

these people acknowledged this guys issues and looked past them but I cant? why? i don't know i just cant stand liars

i feel awful. bleh.

i've been miserable since a couple days ago when i got ganged up on as a joke by them