i can't stand up for myself you know i can't do this on my own please just help me i just wanted to talk but i can't it's ruining my life

I HATE MYSELF I HATE HER SO MUCH I RUINED MY LIFE APOLOGISE TO ME APOLOGISE APOLOGISE PLEASE JUST FVCKING APOLOGISE

i just wanted to be loved do you seriously think i was happy about this change do you truly think so? i don't want to be here anymore