so like,,,, at my school i was voted to be in the homecoming council or whatever and i was on the list and like,,, i'm the only unpopular person on that list so it's clear that it was just for laughs and that's what people are doing i'm thankful but at the same time i know that i'm just going to get bullied on social media(which i do not have so there is no why i can confirm nor deny the posts that could possibly be made), but i also have bad social anxiety and as homecoming queen i'll have to go to a basketball game and talk to a giant crowd of people which is my worst nightmare. i've always been a target of verbal and physical assault from my peers, friends, and family members so i'm worried that this will only make my mental and emotional state really bad a few years ago i was in a bad mental and emotional state and i'm now just getting better so i don't wanna have my confidence crushed. i've just now gotten out of a hole of anxiety, self doubt, and just utter despair and i've been getting better