but this thing inside is just ruining everything-

idk what it is and its not big- but i just been feeling down- Idk but its making me feel wierd- its ruining friendships and ruining me

and the thing is like i do fine all day,, intill i try to talk to someone- it started 5 months ago my mom cheated on my dad i ran away to my father,, but with that i had to leave my sister that happend one year ago.. idk why its now kicking it

I feel just like she doesnt look at me the same over calls.... look idk i just- it just kicks in everyday... drawing and talking to friends keep it away,, but it keeps coming its not big,, i just think i need to get over the fact she doesnt view me as a sister,, but that feeling of that goes to everything like they dont realy want to be my friends

they dont really want me here there just saying that

becuse of this i kinda just havet been thinking much of what i say and thinking od more what other people think leaveing me with "okay" "cool" "epic" and "amazing" idk its fine,, im fine i just need for ome of my friends to stop hating me so i can talk to them-

imma go look at some of my "friends" post um so i wont be commenting bc alot of mt friends dont want me to comment on there post anymore so um not really friends now i think of it- but imma still call them friends so i dont feel as lonely :>

okay bye hope you guys sleep well um drik water and umm

i love you guys