This is not a vent just please make me feel better

Long story, nothing serious to most people but it made me cry

BRB then I'll tell you

na its ok ill just say it here. 1 sec i will type it

ok so :( I was swimming in the hot tub when a small fly thing landed on top of the pool water. I am super creeped out by bugs and probably have Entomophobia, but at the same time i never want anyone to hurt them (weird i know) so i picked it up, which was super gross because it was kid of moving its legs, and i put it on the side of the hot tub and blew on it to make it dry off. One of it's wings was kind of folded in half and because it was wet, it couldnt fly. So i blew on it gently to dry it, and tried to keep it alive, (im crying again :(, ok i think im ok but still) and it looked ok, but i didn't want to set it down in the grass in case it dies, or got eaten. But it seemed to be slowly stopping to move, idk if it was tired or resting or D': dying but i blew on it because it usually moved when i did that but i was pretty still. I accidentally blew it off into the grass and idk if it dies or just is lying there. And even if it is alive it might get eaten since it cant fly. It might be able to fly when...

and yes you can <3

It's wing dried but it looked pretty bad and broken. I just get so emotional over these things. I can't even swat a fly anymore. I used to not care but i just don't know.

ty for listening, just venting it made me feel a LOT better <3 you helped :) I still feel a little bit sad but i am OK

you guys <3