LIKE, I REALLY DON'T GET WHAT HE SEES IN ME. TEREZI LOVED TO UPSET ME AND WAS INTO ME WHEN I WAS ANGRY. NEPETA LIKED ME WHEN I WAS QUIET AND 'SOFT', OR SOME SHIT. BUT HE LOVES ME NO MATTER HOW I'M FEELING OR ACTING. HE'S SEEN ME AT THE WORST POINTS IN MY LIFE AND JUST. DOESN'T CARE. I TELL HIM TO **** OFF AND THAT I HATE HIM, AND HE LAUGHS. I TELL HIM THAT HE MAKES ME THE HAPPIEST TROLL IN THE WORLD, AND HE JUST SMILES. DOES HE REALLY 'LOVE ME FOR ME' OR SOME EQUALLY CLICHE BULLSHIT, OR IS THERE SOMETHING I'M MISSING?

I KNOW *EVERYTHING* ABOUT HIM, AND YET, THIS IS A MYSTERY. I GUESS THIS COULD BE SOME GOOD OLD SELF HATRED, BUT I'M SURE THERE'S SOMETHING I'M MISSING. HE'S ****ING GORGEOUS. HE'S FUNNY AND CAN CARRY A CONVERSATION. HE'S A GOOD KISSER. HE HAS EVERYTHING. SO WHY DID HE CHOOSE SOME ASSHOLE WHO SLEEPS UNTIL 1 PM AND BITES HIM.

WHENEVER I ASK HIM WHY HE LIKES ME HE JUST HAS A ****ING CRISIS. SO HE DOESN'T KNOW EITHER! THERE'S NO REASON FOR HIM TO BE AS OBSESSED WITH ME AS HE IS, AND YET, I'M IN HIS APARTMENT LISTENING TO SOME SONG HE WROTE FOR ME.