(MOSTLY POSTING THIS FOR MYSELF LOLLL) i get kinda scared talkin abt everything goin on in my brain coz ppl might think im faking shit for attention but um!!!! im not. my life iz hell and im on the verge of a breakdown N E WAYZ. ive been makin a lottt of ventz recently. im doing super shitty lol. i have. trauma and psychosis. im in this weird mode where i feel like im constantly in the middle of an anxiety attack or a dissociative episode (thoze r uzually combined for me tho) and ive just. had a really bad memory the past few monthz. like. im doin something one second and the next im in a completely different place. itz ****ing terrifying man!!!!!!! and like. ive been paranoid abt a certain past irl friend of mine and that combined with the dissociation ANd my delusionz abt feeling like im a videogame antagonist nn that im not real. itz uh...... not a good combo at all