Who else will be chilling with there friends then out of no where you become miserable and quiet alone w your thoughts

This doesn’t happen often anymore but if the ppl I’m with wonder off or I’m left by myself for a moment I just disconnect

My medication doesn’t make all of my anxiety or depression just cease to exist, I still have depressive episodes and bad thoughts- just less frequent I woke up today exhausted and not wanting to do anything Even rn I feel gloomy Maybe I used all my effort on Valentine’s Day with my friend I don’t find going to events exhausting I love going to them because there a distraction from my own morbid thoughts but once it’s over I almost feel sad it’s over

It’s really easy for me to make ANYTHING sound negative or bad Like I spent the whole day doing fun stuff with my friends only to whine about it being over But it’s okay to not feel okay or think negatively sometimes It’s just with me it happened all the time, and now I have to take medication It makes me feel human when I have negative thoughts or days now Not in a way to say I deserve bad things, it’s just realistically no one can always be happy

If you have week long to month long depressive episodes it’s not normal Took me almost dying to realize that but you know I can’t say that feeling this way doesn’t remind me of the times I had those long episodes But it also makes me appreciate how I don’t have to suffer through them as long anymore

Also idk how your supposed to feel on anti depressant medication but I don’t feel high or anything? I never been high so maybe I just don’t know but I just don’t experience my depression as much It also makes me worry about if I try to get off it what will happen but for now I’m focusing on getting my diploma and driver’s license

I wonder when I get my job if my depressive disorder will be a issue? What if I have a week long episode and can’t work- I’ll be fired and I won’t have money But as my therapist put it you can’t know it till you try it or something like that

This is my alter ego Anyita maxyn a nit a way to diverge from this planet and rest for eternity to release myself from the burden of shouldering this empty feeling and thoughts of suicide

I want a tiny dollhouse I want tiny furniture I need FOUR PEANUT BUTTER AND JELLY SANDWICHES

If I had a cat I wouldn’t be depressed 100 percent

Became self aware

Oh thank god I feel weird because no one else really has talked abt this type of feeling or experience atleast in a way I understand or relate to

It’s like you ruined your own evening It’s like a reminder you can’t just have a nice time sometimes There’s always something negative in your head or you just can’t feel anything

Let’s see YOU take a crack at it smarty pants

Fib your the most mentally ill person I know on this platform

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