hahaha i wanna die i need to die i wanna to commit suicide, i try convince myself to kill myself but its not working hahahah... why.. why? i can't enjoy life without myself ruining it... why? i want to suffer..i am jealous of people who suffer more than me. i don't care if i don't want to. hahaha~ why can't i kill myself already?? why?? why do i still care?? why... why why?? why do i still strive to to live?? no no no !! i can't!! i can't !! please.. why do i not listen to myself?? why ?? please...i hate this. i don't need help and dont need it! so why?if i wanted i could just stop being like this! but i want to??? what's wrong with me?? nothing! i don't actually wanna die! why?? i'm fine? what do i want?? i'm not listening to any advice. i don't want help, i don't.. ah why? haha why can't i kms already.? agggg fukck thisssss

i feel guilty for wanting to live hahahhaha i needa kms

im gonna hurt mysefl!! whaoo

ahh im sorry dude... i feel like im being too selfish hru doing?