I can't keep doing this
by:
MaxiTheNerd 
885
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01.08.2023
19 comments
zSyrup
01.08.2023 02:37
LinkDo you feel comfortable enough to share what's bothering you?
zSyrup
01.08.2023 02:40
Linkyou don't have to force yourself to keep putting on a smile , you're a human being too, your allowed to feel different emotions
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
01.08.2023 02:41
LinkThank yiu /gen
Im so sorry for always being a terrible friend I wish I was better. I wish I could make you happy I wish I wasn't so stupid I wish I would just shut up but somehow I'm managing to say this. This is all I'm going to say just I'm sorry I don't want people worrying about me I just want everyone to be ok I don't care if im not as long as everyone else is
Nobody will believe me I don't even trust myself anymore I just want everyone to be ok I just want to make sure you're ok I don't care if im not I don't care I just need you to be ok
I can't lose you you literally don't understand how much you mean to me and if youre reading this please be ok
I am done typing because I sound like. extremely stupid right now and I probably sound weird and everyone hates me and everyone just pretends none of this is real I hate everything why couldn't I have been just normal I'm sorry
Everybody just pretends they like me my own father doesn't love me he's using me
Maybe he's not but my mom says she thinks something like that but she won't tell me I'm just so lost I don't want help anymore I can't talk anymore I just want to be normal like everyone else
you have no idea how much you mean to me you dont know how much youve done for me you are everything to me i love and care about you so much /p
these feelings are 100% genuine and i cant describe the amount of love i have for you/p youre everything without you id be crying alone everyday youre the only person i can be true to
you mean the world to me and as somebody whos never felt romance their whole life being your friend is the closest thing ive ever felt to love
id trust my life in your hands youre such a sweet and amazing person/gen
please just be yourself show your true colors show the world who u r
Im literally sobbing so hard please you literally hve no idea how much u mean to me I csnt I love you So much please /p I don't even know how to like. Put it into words j know it sounds corny and shit but likd. You would never know how much u mean to me .
you are the best friend i could ever ask for/gen
thank you for being in my life