I wanna die but if i don’t wanna die i am unsatisfied and feel empty i need to hurt myself or try to kill me to have meaning i don’t even ****in know why i wanna die i don’t wanna know i don’t wanna not die i don’t wanna be ok i just wanna die i don’t care abt anything anymore only things i care abt is drawing music and suicide i think about suicide literally all day and night i used to wanna live but i convinced myself into wanting to do this is what i wanted rriighttt? Nothings wrong with me i don’t want help i just wanna die i really don’t inderstand why people wanna live in so ****ing pathetic why can’t i die i seriously wanna die I’m gonna try to do it but i don’t know how or what to do i sound so ****ing pathetic and ducking cringe i don’t want anything besides being dead uggg. I have to go to therapy now cuz my parents found out i want hurting myself i have been lying to my therapist i still wanna hurt myself and kill myself my life is great and i don’t want it i get happy thinkin abt how i kms