Then the ****ing problems my siblings have with me?? I don’t know what I did They wreck the house ****ing daily and I get yelled at for it then expected to clean the house daily Which wouldn’t be an issue if there wasn’t 6 other people in the house and 5 animals and st least one other person besides my ****ing mom would make sure the dishes aren’t spilling out of the sink every ****ing night She told me that shit would change and her and Jamie would stop fighting and we’d be able to afford groceries like before but it’s been a year since and nothings changed She got back from a trip Monday and the minute she got home her and Jamie were arguing and they’re confused why nobody comes out of their rooms

And it’s not even like I can just leave with Ethan’s family out of town and him working full time and I’m still waiting on the hotel to get back to me about the new job And with my brother out of town I can’t even just like leave to see friends or ask someone for food cause apparently now I’m my sisters ****ing caretaker when there 5 other people ABOVE THE AGE OF 18 WHO CAN DRIVE And I’m still the bad guy for wanting at least some ****ing semblance of a social life And my moms lays getting mad whenever I leave the house it’s either to see my one friend or boyfriend and is upset I don’t talk to more people when I literally have no way of leaving I’m esp sick of my siblings or parents making me cancel plans I’ve had for literal weeks cause they just don’t want to be at the house with Olivia or take them with wherever I don’t get what makes their lives more important than mine it’s really shitty

I’ve spent all of what summer has been so far rotting in bed when I could’ve gone camping with friends and several local concerts I don’t get it They tell me to enjoy my youth while I can when get mad at me for trying to Or any time I try to go out past 7 and they lecture me about drugs and alcohol when my stepdad stinks the entire house w the smell of his pot literally every night past 8 to the point where I get told people can smell it on me and my mom actively encourages me to h and out around the bar weekly to help with work I’m not even upset with the work part I just wish they’d realize I’m an actual person

Like the other day my sister came up outta nowhere ranting to me about how I’m the favorite and how she was getting asked by my mom about hard drugs Like it was suspected for just no reason?? My siblings get pissed at me for being the ‘first’ choice when literally you can’t even rely on them to rinse out their dirty ****ing dishes so I don’t have to stand there and scrub them cause they couldn’t take 10 ****ing seconds out of their own time to half ass it I genuinely can’t express how ready I am to graduate and get the hell out and be recognized for all the ****ing effort I put into being a decent ****ing kid cause it’s exhausting I can’t even bring stuff up to them about my own personal issues whether it be mental health or asking for the bare minimum to help accommodate my sensory issues or autism without getting guilt tripped for it

Then I’m expected to be my strong own person and hold my own when people are mean I’ve had an awful couple days D\besides Ethan teaching me how to swim Except yesterday his ex messaged both of us ab how she broke up with whoever she was with and asking him if we were still together which is ****ing weird But that’s my Ted talk