Me and my two little siser were in the living room and the baby had a glass bowl with gramh crackers in it on a chairf and it suddenly fell and so I accidently automatically gave out a little scream because I was starrled and our Mom was out shopping with my aunt and our Dad was sleeping dowstairs, suddenly we hear “WHAT THE **** HAPPEND, WHY’S THERE SCREAMING!! WHAT’D YOU GUYS DO THIS TIME!” and so we ran to a bedroom as he was walking in because he does have anger issues. Anyways from the bedroom we heard him cursing and screaming and the first thing my 11 year old sister did when we got away was hide. Every time we went into a room from him the first thing she did was hide. The two year old was scared, heck even I was scared. But my Mom wasn’t around to protect us this time, so I took her place. He tried getting into the bedroom and my sisters hid, 10 year old in the closet, two year old under the blanket, quieter and stiller than she has ever been, completely silent, completely still.

He unlocked the door and I pushed with all my might against him to make sure he didn't get in, luckily I pushed hard enough. all I was able to think of at that moment was protecting my sisters, he said “IF YOU DON’T OPEN THE DAMN DOOR YOU’LL GET SEVERLY PUNISHED YOU LITTLE ****ER!” and for a while I made sure to stay quiet so he wouldn’t get madder and eventually I said something like my Mom would just much more calmly , I said “You’re clearly in no condition to come in right now, you’re grumpy.” and all I was able to think about was protecting them, despite my fear. I can’t believe I have to deal with this. Why me? Why do I have to have HIM of all people as a dad. Why can’t I just have a normal family? why? I’m so done with all of this. I thought he was done acting that way, clearly I was wrong. He’ll never be a normal, loving Dad.

I no longer have any hope in him, I used to think "oh maybe he'll try to be nicer, he'll get better. I know he will" but he's proven that wrong so many times I can't even try anymore. He's just. He's unforgivable at this point.