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MYOhSeeS[OP]
12.06.2023 07:13
Linkthis is a vent post so dont say goofy stuff pls
i just wanna be enough- not because i do something that proves im worthy of it i wanna be enough even when im not doing my best- just love myself and be loved even when im drowning. it just feels like i can only get validation for doing things like working n stuff. just being me n i dont wanna feel shamed for failing or feel like im worthless n stuff, like im still a human so why do i feel so little sometimes?
MYOhSeeS[OP]
12.06.2023 07:17
Linki feel like im not doing enough to improve myself and i shame myself because im such a perfectionist and i feel like im worthless if im not doing my best- but that stuff shouldnt even matter because were all on a floating rock in space and were all gonna die so why shoudl i even be so hard on myself in the first place? i just wanna be more confident- pretty- smart- outgoing- i just get so anxious sometimes and its just really hard to use those opportunities that i have- and it makes me so frustrated and upset- like will i always be like this? anxious over dumb stuff like even phone calls scare me so much and i dont know why and i hate it or even just meeting new people i get rlly anxious and then i feel awkward even tho i like shouldnt-
MYOhSeeS[OP]
12.06.2023 07:20
Linkand then i feel so different from other people- like everyone is so talkative and its so easy for them so i kinda feel even worse cuz its just super hard for me- like everyone has friend groups n stuff and i only have like 1 close friend even tho i appreciate her ive always wanted just a group to share laughs with and do anything n everything with- just some people that understand me and care about me n will always be there- why cant i just have that?
MYOhSeeS[OP]
12.06.2023 07:30
Link1 close irl friend* i have a few close online friends but ugh i wish i knew them irl cuz they r so amazing- i hate having anxiety it wrecks my confidence sometimes- like im way self conscience then i was before but i still take peoples opinions to heart sometimes- even though i know the only opinion that matters is mine. i just feel like i missed out on my teen years- i know im a good person and i can have good friends im just never the person that approaches someone first so it just never happens-
Youre already doing your best, even if its not themost you could ideally do in a perfect world.
Little steps.
You prolly wont see this or really care but I wanna say I'm sorry and its long overdue. I held you to a standard I shouldn't have just because I was going through stuff. I took out all my frustration and anger over my life out on you and thats not fair to you at all. I was driven to a breaking point by my family and I felt like you were all I had so I did everything in my power to keep you, whenever I felt like I was losing you I freaked out.
You're genuinely a cool person and I really enjoyed my time just hanging out and being friends with you, my friends thought so as well. I think I took on something I couldn't handle just yet and especially in the situation I was in so I truly hope you didn't blame that on yourself. We're kids, you're trying to get your life started and thats a lot of pressure. I think you were forced to grow up too fast and thats really unfortunate.
Making friends is hard but I know if you just put yourself out there as the person you are, people will love you. (still typing)
Try to talk to as many people as possible. Get out your comfort zone. Try to make time for those things you love cuz you only live once. Spend your life the way you want to. Don't work yourself to death. You're very strong and I know you've seen a lot in your life. Take those struggles and turn them into a lesson. Learn from it, thats what its there for. Find people you can relate to, start a group chat. It'll be a hit.
I hope your doing better, sorry this was so abrupt. You're cool. ^^
hey, I really appreciate you writing all of this. I wanna apologize too cuz I wasn't the best friend I could be to you. And I understand you had alot going on in your life n were going through so much and im sorry that i probably hurt you. your a really cool person too n super strong for surviving everything you've been through you should be proud of yourself fr. I enjoyed hanging out with you too u were what made my days alot brighter so ty for that:) yeah haha im still going through some stuff but im figuring it out^^ I hope your doing well too its been a hot minute-
That's genuinely really great advice ill try n take it to heart!! i really struggle meeting new people though because i get hella anxiety and overthink situations^^ but it has gotten alot easier the more i put myself out there. Thanks really that means alot to me.
im still working on myself but thank you! and its totally okay i understand u needed space i cant blame u