its like no one's even paying attention to me. I pour my heart and soul out into everything i do, all my writing and poetry and school work and art and at best i get a 'good job'. everyone always says that youll meet people and make friends once you start being yourself but it feels like when im myself no one cares no one notices. maybe they just think ill be good on my own and i dont know if i will be how am i to grow if no one gives me anything to grow from i just need- want -encouragement and feedback and just the satisfaction of knowing that someone has even seen what ive done and i cant even get that in my own home. it makes me want to stop doing what i love and just start blending in because it doesn't seem to matter either way so why waste so must energy on continuing to try and be something that clearly no one else sees me as