I'm so chill abt this haaha She's so insufferable sometimes I'm getting sick of being optimistic

I had a nightmare last night cuz me n my sister had an argument yesterday Scary as shit, woke up sweating

One like ! Oh my gosh I love u haah

I just want to be loved Romantically or not I don't care Affection is what I crave God I'm selfish I should shut the fvck up

I wish I didn't know about this site, I wish I didn't know how to draw I wish I didn't make characters I wish I didn't like anime or manga or any comic I wish I was devoted to being a Muslim I wish I was perfect just like my mom told me to be I'm a puppet,, a performer I need to be perfect,, the perfect subject for my mom I need to be appealing, good-looking, a devotee to my religion Someone who doesn't believe in any lgbt stuff Someone I can be to be free I'm so stuck,, I can't come out to anyone about who I am What I like ****

AGH **** MAN WHAT THE ACTUAL **** I HATE MYSELF SM I **** EVERYTHING UP IM A MISTAKE WHY WAS I BORN I SHOULDVE DIED AT CHILD BIRTH I WAS PURPLE,, IN NEED OF DEATH WHY DIDNT U LET ME ****ING DIE MOM ??? WHY DIDNT U LET ME GO IF U WERE JUST GONNA TREAT ME LIKE A PUPPET WHY DID U DO THAT WHY MY QUESTION IS WHY

That's a horrible thing to think I'm sorry mom I shouldn't have said that pls I'm sorry mommy I don't mean it I swear please I just Need some space for breathing please mommy I really care for u I rlly do I shouldn't have said all that I'm sorry mom I'm rlly sorry I'm ur perfect child I'm sorry mommy pls I'm really really sorry I am rlly..

That's a horrible thing to think I'm sorry mom I shouldn't have said that pls I'm sorry mommy I don't mean it I swear please I just Need some space for breathing please mommy I really care for u I rlly do I shouldn't have said all that I'm sorry mom I'm rlly sorry I'm ur perfect child I'm sorry mommy pls I'm really really sorry I am rlly..

That's a horrible thing to think I'm sorry mom I shouldn't have said that pls I'm sorry mommy I don't mean it I swear please I just Need some space for breathing please mommy I really care for u I rlly do I shouldn't have said all that I'm sorry mom I'm rlly sorry I'm ur perfect child I'm sorry mommy pls I'm really really sorry I am rlly..

I'm such a bad kid I should've died when I had the chance At the bridge w my family I should've jumped off

I wish i didn't feel like this either It sucks,, wish I was normal actually