Rx2 T-H-O-M-A-S/Lilli-Cat
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{Laughter}
zhouzhibo time
"The doctor will see you now."
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No no it's not fair
16 comments
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 04:59
LinkI've been working on genshin for like three weeks and now I don't have enough storage to ****ing download the update- I deleted practically everything and I don't think I can add more storage ugh this is so frustrating it's such a good game to play when I need to calm down it's not fair I have to just give up
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:02
LinkIt makes me sound like a spoiled brat bit nothing ever goes my way
I can't just have ONE THING it always has to screw up and it's not fair
It's like the universe is taking things away from me to see how much longer I can last
I'm so close I know I am
Maybe I'm just not meant to get through this
Maybe I'm just MEANT to kill myself
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:03
LinkI sound like such a drama queen but I know if someone else was in the same predicament as I am
They'd feel the same
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:06
LinkI feel like in just so close to the edge
And then something great happens
Like getting genshin or when I just got the new iPad
But it's always been this way
Whenever I have something that makes me happy something or someone has to mess it up
I can't have my girlfriend
I can't have a service dog
I can't have one day off of school I can't do anything anymore! I just want a break I can't do this anymore I can't just keep going through this stupid cycle!
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:06
LinkAnd of course I can't do anything right...
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:09
LinkGod who even cares anymore
They've all left me alone
They
They aren't here anymore
Everyone
Everyone I used to be on call with every night
But now I only have one person to do that with and he's always so distant
It's nice having him just sit there with me but **** it hurts to just know that if that one person they adore so much were to ask to call they'd just- never stop talking
It hurts to just know you'll never be anyone's first choice
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:09
LinkI'm just- a circumstance
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:10
LinkI keep asking myself why I'm venting when it never helps
And I don't
I don't know why
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:10
LinkI just keep hoping that one day someone will notice and someday they'll stay.
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:12
LinkBut thanks to intimacy issues I can't
I can't do that I can't have anyone by my side because I'll destroy them I'll break them down I made Charles tired of me I made Elliot and his friends always on guard around me even rose
Gah.
They go away a lot now and I know it's out of their control but it just feels like pity
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:14
LinkI want to be someone's first choice I keep telling people I'm going to help them, I'm going to save them but I'm the one that needs to be saved! It's not fair that I have to cheer them up when they do nothing in return
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:14
LinkI want to claw at my throat and rip out a major artery just because I'm alone.
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:16
LinkI don't know how to feel
I hate everyone and everything because I'm abandoned? Or that I want to be held so close, and be told I'll always be taken care of?
I don't want killing myself to be the only way out of this I want to live I want to be an adult I want to live to be happy I want to live
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:19
LinkBut I'm just one stupid teenager in 1.7 billion people
And people die everyday
A lot are suicides.
I just wish there could've been a better way out for me
I want to live this stupid fantasy of living life on the road and being happy all around the place, constantly looking for things that make me smile with someone right beside me
I want to live out that stupid fantasy so bad
But it's romanticized
Because I can't imagine how many people die from just trying to check their wheels
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:21
LinkI want to live in an anime
Where some insignificant person
Becomes the very being of someone else
Where they learn to love life
To never be ashamed of who they are
I want to adventure and have adventures with a cute little squad of miscreants
-Melancholy-Tea-[OP]
24.08.2022 05:21
LinkBut living in my own head had become a chore recently
Theres no way out