it is not in a good way, however

multiple poor decisions in the past, hormones, this website, procasination & a bunch of mental disorders

i will talk about 1 of them because the other ones are more personal

there is this concept with trolling that i imagine as a hurricane, the more you troll, the more you get sucked into the hurricane and your morals loosen and loosen and it makes you do worse and worse things

i have been sucked into this hurricane multiple times

because of this, i cannot talk to a big chunk of the website

i also feel guilt every day

the eye would be probably be the most heinous trolls

i stopped trolling for i believe a few months but the other side-effects still stand

now i wander around and try to apologize to people