I try. I KEEP A SMILE WHEN IM HURT THE MOST. I SMILE. someone once said I was a trooper.. and I carried that on.. every time im hurt.. I KEEP THE TEARS AWAY. ITS ENOUGH TO PLEASE THEM BUT SOMETIMES THEY SEE THE PAIN.

AND I TRY TO KEEP THEM AWAY FROM THE TRUTH. TO SMILE I STAY STRONG FOR THEM. BUT SOMETIMES THEY SEE MY PAIN AND IT HURTS MORE. WHY.. WHY DID YOU ALL HAVE TO LEAVE ME.. Why..? YOU SEE MY PAIN.. BUT NO ONE UNDERSTOOD. I DO IT FOR THEM TO NOT HURT MORE THAN I DO. Cassie thank you for inspiring me.. for having the knowledge and those bandages my hand hurt but I put the pain behind me.

I still have the scar.. The can.. The fence.. The RV.. The wall.. Those are where some of my scars came from. Like a trooper. THEY NEVER GIVE UP LIKE I DO I DONT GIVE UP AT MY LOWEST POINTS IN LIFE.

no one understands like you did you smile.. your laugh.. Grandpa please.. Give me that joy again.

I try and be happy but.. No one sees my pain. only when its a bit. BUT WHEN I FEEL THE MOST PAIN IN MY LIFE NO ONE CARES???? THE FENCE RIPPED THROUGH MY SKIN AND WENT INTO MY HAND SO MUCH I WAS GUSHING BLOOD. BUT ELI CARED NOTHING ABOUT IT HE JUST CARED ABOUT HIDE AND SEEK. more than people he cared more about a game than people and that's what hurts me.