I know you don't need my pity, and that you probably won't see this. But people are here for you and know what you are going through, and I know this sounds really cliche, but hear me out. My friend tried to end her life when I was only nine, family members of mine have died, I have depression and have been fighting it and suicidal thoughts for a year. When something like this happens, you get sad, it's human nature, but you can't let that sadness destroy you. If you do, you will eventually do the same thing he did, causing another one of your friends to, and another, and start a line of this depression and hurt. Suicide is like dominoes, once it starts it won't end until everyone has fallen to it. I know what you are going through, believe me or not, and I'm here for you. It's not just me either, so many people care for you and are here for you and know what you are going through. People want to help, and you can's stop us now.