when the one person who,practically raised you tells your mom that he can't stand you and that you get worse the more years go by so then you go in deep depression for a whole month and he doesn't know how much pain you're in and your mom always takes his side over yours even though it's her fault for birthing you at 17 so now you have a meaningless life which involves you being a closetted transgender/outted pansexual which also means you watch unhealthy amounts of yaoi and yagami yato even though you've been caught by your mom for years but you just want a hug because you are broken and because when you were little she never showed you any physical love just physical abuse and you've been in therapy for 9 years now-