You know.. I should just stay quiet. Loss shouldn't be an excuse to dump my asshole opinion on things on you guys.... I really should just keep bottling this up.. The one thing she told me the most was to stop crying But I can't stop crying My mother was an ASSHOLE to me But I still miss her...why? I shouldn't miss someone who dragged years out of me like a river Someone who called me usless. somethings wrong with me You know she's right I'm just a spoiled brat I get everything I want.. But I didnt want this..

I might as well just ****ing overdose IF EVERYONE I LOVED HAS DIED WHY SHOULDN'T I??

I'm technically an orphan.. I'm just a ****ing useless child I don't want to stay here I miss my real friends Why can't I just stay at home.. Because this place isn't home It doesn't feel like home It's too different

I- seriously? Seriously You- I don't even know how to explain this to you My mother DIED And I'm trying to let out my FEELINGS