it was because i miss some guy i used to be friends with and i have this deep rooted hatred for any kind of change in my life and i went to bed thinking abljt how “ah shit im never gonna be able to fill that pit of emptiness deep inside me again” but thats retarded and cringe so now i feel embarrassed

think the attachment issues got better though when he told me again after saying he hated me and then asking me if we could talk again a dozen times i wasnt too upset about jt but for some reason now i am

its literally every april and may without fail i cannot do this anymore!!!!!!i eant to kms