She's my first friend here..the best and most loyal friend..I don't want to lose her, I will be happy that she would be with me every day as before.I even wanted to make this vent private and show it only to her, I was just afraid to say that I'm not okay.. I don't give a shit about my other friends but..I feel better with her..? I was afraid to post this because I didn't want questions like "u ok?" or "how can I help?" because I am not comfortable talking to people about such topics, I hope you will understand me.. <3