Vent
by:
WarriorCatsClans 
99
99
26.11.2022
11 comments
WarriorCatsClans[OP]
26.11.2022 12:03
LinkI feel numb but I feel pain at the same time. I overthink everything. I worry about everything and everybody. My 'friends' always vent to me about their nothing problems, but they dont ever ask me how I am. They dont realise how good they have it compared to me. I am Non-binary, and Pansexual, and only a couple people in my life know, my friends. My parents are catholic and homophobic and curse pride right infront of my face, and I cant do anything so I am forced to agree. My dad is racist and sexist, my mother is racist, and I worry for my dog. My father has a really bad temper, he is a really big, fat man. He abuses my dog (emotionally and physically), and me (Mostly emotional abuse, rarely physical). I have to be a perfect pretty girl when im around my family. Im sick of it, and I want to just get away from all of it asap. Im not allowed to be friends with my friends, because of one stupid mistake. I am also non-religous, I believe in mostly reincarnation and I study witchcraft.
WarriorCatsClans[OP]
26.11.2022 12:06
LinkPart 2- I dont care if someone has a religion, you do you boo. I had an anxiety attack in the middle of the night, I woke up in a cold sweat, becuase I dreamed of the one time me and my best friend at the time were on the phone with eachother and we were talking if anything was real. I stared having an axiety attack and a meltdown because I was thinking what if life is an illusion, what if this is just a big dream, what if im in a coma and im watching my life again, what if im secretly dead, what is the meaning of life, why do i exist, I hate myself, and I hate that I hate myself. I started having a meltdown and I got a bloody nose. This lasted for ****ing 20 minutes.
WarriorCatsClans[OP]
26.11.2022 12:14
LinkPart 3- Yes I know this turned into a rant, if you dont want to read it just leave and dont read it. Simple. Anyways, I dated my old best freind (Lets call her flower) 11 times. 11 TIMES. Me and flower had a really toxic relationship, she s*xualy abused me, gr00med me, and she was a p3dophile. She thought being z00, a p3do, a gr00mer, was funny. She comes back to me everytime, and says 'sorry' a bunch of times and pleads for me to give her another chance. I am sick of it, and a week ago, I said no. I am tired of her constant begging, and pleading. "Sorry" cant fix everything. Then she said "Guess I really ****ed up this time" like she didnt give a crap that she tore me apart. Being 13, this is all too early. This should be a 16 problem, but no, it all started at the age of 11. I have had s@icidal thoughts, but you dont have to worry, I hate feeling pain so I would never try anything.
WarriorCatsClans[OP]
26.11.2022 12:15
LinkIm all burnt out now, so im just going to leave it at this for now.
Im sorry, youre in a tough situation, and i wish i could help, but i cant do much but listen. Im happy to talk and listen when you need it. My father and i are in a similar condemnant, but i cannot pretend i know what youre going through. I wish you all the best luck, from one pagan fellow to another.
Thank you, its always a bit of a settlement when you know someone is going through something similar.
That is terrible. Shouldnt happen at 11, 13, or even 16. its despicable and irresputable. It is disgusting as humans that anyone would do that, and i am sorry, and i hear you.