Fa has been like my diary for so long- I’m used to no one responding and I apologize for that Sometimes I forget there’s actually people on here

I’m sorry that I scare you guys, I’m sorry that you genuinely care Thank you but I’m just- not sure atm Anyway I’ll try to stop even if I do feel bad I’ll use an actual notebook or something

I understand this is a horribly selfish thing to ask but can I keep going on pretending like it’s not gonna happen? I want to have as much fun as possible in hopes it’ll change my mind

Thank you, I know it’s coping I just really hate scaring you guys

Mmhm ty